You All Faiil!

Well you all freaking faiiiil! I mean, the point was because I was blogfailing you were to ask me anything you ever wanted to ask, ever. That's a once in a lifetime opportunity and do you want to know how many people asked? One! One person. Although I got three responses, thank you to those who responded. So, to answer your question Graham/Gad123. I can't really pick a favourite movie, but these are some of my favourites: The Little Mermaid, Romeo and Juliet, 10 Things I Hate About You and The Sex and the City Movie.

So in order to post some kind of question-answer mathingy, I found this off a friend on facebook and it's a bit random but it's not one of those "whats your favourite colour/person/place/thing" lark. It's some interesting stuff. Or not. You decide. Ha. Anyway, back to normal updates later this week :)

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Either way is nerve-wrecking, because telling your feelings face to face is super awkward if they don't feel the same and being told how someone feels is awkward if you don't feel the same.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
It was probably to do with the lack of seeing my manfriend due to lack of funds and now due to illness.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago nonstop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
My Mum. To let her know the situation and tell her that I love her and to pass on the message that I love everyone else too :P.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
I wouldn't tell anyone and just try and live life as normally as possible while doing some of the things I've always wanted to do without arousing suspicion. If you say "here I'm gonna die" people will just make you stay in bed and rest and give you the sympathy vote. No, I want to live the rest of my life while I can!

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust
Trust. Love comes from trusting the other person wholeheartedly. So I picked one but end up with both :P

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dog’s life?
Save the dog. I'd probably not stay in that job for much longer if it's like that anyway.

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?
Tbh, I'd probably not tell them but find a way to end the relationship. If I'm unfaithful then it''s obvious that the relationship isn't working for me so I really shouldn't be in it.

8. Your friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?
Depends if I felt the same or not. If I did feel the same, I'd give them a hug and tell them I feel the same way and sort ourselves out. If I didn't, I'd apologise and say I dont feel the same way but I want to still be friends if they are willing to do it too.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Sometimes. I mean, Im only human afterall. Sometimes I make mistakes but I learn from them eventually. But you know, I think I'm a good friend when it comes down to it. At least, I hope I am.

11. Does love = sex?
Definitely not.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
I really cant remember. It was probably with friends about manfriends and admitting that I really feel something for a certain someone.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?
That I dont love them back because it makes the friendship awkward if it's just one-sided.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
My Mum. Because she's awesome.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?
Jesse I believe, she's one of my besties.

18. Imagine: it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
A big macho man to beat up the dude outside.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Er. I've no idea. I mean like, no probably not. Just because I have no idea how to do CPR and I'd probably ring an ambulance and panic instead.

21. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your reason for making the decision?
My granny. Because apparantley the newborn is just a newborn. I mean, Im not up for killing babies but you know, I love my granny a lot.

22. Are you old fashioned?
I dont think I am, maybe in some things.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Who does such a thing? Haha.

24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
True love with a broken heart. Because broken hearts teaches us things. As the quote goes "It is better to have loved and lost than never have loved at all".

25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
I would wish that life made sense.

Blogging Fail: Ask Me Anything!

I know, I'm a bad bad blogger because I haven't posted in a week, or two. To be honest though, I've been absolutely exhausted. As I mentioned before, I volunteer five days a week at my local community centre and that goes from early in the morning to late afternoon and it's hard work looking after 23+ kids. I also had some personal drama going on so that kept me on my toes for a while. Luckily, all is sorted now and I am fine, if a little tired.

I really don't have much to update because I'm not planning on spilling my personal drama over the internet (learnt that lesson already) so you are just going to have to forgive me and my boringness at present. If you really want to know what's going on with me, you should follow my twitter. I update that a bit more regularly than I update here.

Ooooh! I just thought of something I can tell you about! YWS, known as the Young Writer's Society is a website I recently stumbled across during some of my blog reading moments, I joined up and have already posted a poem and did some reviews and I spend a lot of the time in the chatroom too. It's a great site for young, aspiring writer's like myself to get some critique on your work and see how it pans out to an audience :). So there you go, something interesting!

I have also recently developed an addiction to Sims 3. It is much alike Sims 2, although more attention to detail has been paid and it does allow for more interaction within the neighbourhood. To any budding Sims fans or video-gamers, I would recommend you give it a try. It can be fun for living out fantasies with that boy you always dreamt of marrying but will never ever have the chance. Okay, so yes, I may or may not be living out my fantasies via Sims 3. At least I'm living them ehhhh? :P.

Moving swiftly on! That really is about all I have to say at the moment. I will promise to go and do something fun so that I can blog about it for you readers, if I happen to have any. You know, if you are reading, leave a comment, it'd be nice to have some reactions. Here, I'll make it worth your while. You can ask me anything you want! About anything, ever. Is there something you really want to know about me? Ask away and I'll answer them in my next post. There, happy?

Also, I stumbled across the following picture the other day and it really struck a chord with me, any thoughts?

What A Way To Make A Living

I just wanted to post an update to say, I am indeed still alive. I survived Paris but I'm really not keen on talking about it. Some of it was fun, some of it wasn't but we've been there and got the t-shirt, or well the keyrings and condoms actually.

Moving on. Whilst I was away, people I know seemed to pass certain rights of passage. A couple of friends got married, some even had babies and others simply got a job or graduated and whilst I am happy for them, I can't help but feel a little left behind.

Now I am not saying that I want to get married, have kids and get a job because honestly, I don't. I also think it's kind of ironic that we are in one of the worst recessions ever, yet people are still getting jobs and spending money like there's no tomorrow (good on them though!).

I have never said that I am anything less than weird/abnormal/whatever else and when it comes to jobs, I really am no different. I've had my fair share of tribulations when it comes to work, I had a paper job, I worked in a chippy, I worked in a spar and I hated every single one of them.

People continue to tell me though, that it's the people who make the job. The people at all of those jobs I've had have been lovely and I still talk to some of them to this day and yet I still hated those jobs, so no, it's not the people, at least not for me.

If I'm honest, I guess those jobs are mundane, ones taken because the alternative is to survive on chick peas and porridage like big brother contestants for the rest of your life. Getting a job at a spar, at least brings in that small bit of cash every month allowing you to be rich in food and general life things.

For me though, it's not enough. I have this need to do something amazing with my life, like I mentioned in my Post Secret post. I want to do something that inspires people, that lets them get to know themselves in a way that they never would have before, it's just figuring out a way to do that, something original and something that will earn money. I know that it's not easy, being only 19 and still at University, so the likelihood of achieving something that big at this age isn't very high. Yet, I still feel the need to try, to think of things that seem strange and indifferent, to test them out and see how well it works and sure it's not earning me any cash, or getting me anywhere fast, but I would rather spend my time doing something that means something to me than working long and tiring shifts just for a bit of money which Ill spend on something ridiculous anyway.

However, this is not for a lack of trying. I surf recruitment websites everyday, looking for something that appeals to me, so that I can indeed earn that bit of cash to survive on. People will say, just take a job, it doesn't have to be one that appeals to you. I'm sorry but it does, I need to at least want to do something of the sort or I'll end up negative all the time and what is the point in doing something that makes you unhappy and doing it deliberately? There's just no sense in that.

For a long time now, I have spent my summers volunteering at a local summer scheme. It is run in my local community centre, which I've been attending since I was a toddler myself, it's where I've grown up and where I watch others grow up and sure, since it's voluntary I don't get paid. But the work is not hard and actually kind of enjoyable and I think my summer would feel a little lost without it. This summer is no different, from the 6th July for 4-5 weeks I'll be spending my days looking after littl'uns and traipsing about the country and though I might complain at the time, I look back on it fondly. Not to mention, it looks good on my CV.

I didn't really have a point with this whole story, I just needed to get it off my chest. Some of you might work 9-5 in a mundane job and I hope I haven't offended you, but to top it all off, there's a quote that goes as such:

"Find a job you love and you'll never work a day in your life."
Confucius

And that my friends, is the kind of job that we all need.

Just A Thought....

Post Secret

I am sure if you regularly follow this blog, you may have taken a look at my sidebar and noticed my blogroll. In that blogroll there is a link that says PostSecret. Post Secret is a community project started by Frank Warren. His idea was that people put their secrets on a postcard and annoymously mail them to him and since then, he has recieved millions of postcards from strangers all over the world. Every Sunday, he updated the post secret website from the best cards he recieved that week and the ones that don't get seen are put into books that can be purchased from Amazon or any bookstore, though moreso in the USA.

I follow this project intently because I think it's amazing that just one man can become so trusted with everybody's secrets even though he is a stranger to us. It's an awesome project and I have even purchased one of the books and shared it with my friends. Sometimes we laugh about the secrets, or start debates about some of the views shared, or have chats about the more serious issues brought up within them. And sometimes, we even find secrets that we have hidden amongst the cards, even if we never sent one in.

It's a really inspiring project and It's something that I would love to do myself. I want to do something inspiring like that, something that means something to someone else in the world. So I'm not going to ramble on, but post a few of the postcards that I've found interesting, or can relate to myself and I encourage you to click here and read the rest of the secrets yourself.

Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda...

I can’t…
Roll my tongue or my R's, Speak French very well, Express my feelings openly to those who need to hear them, Stop Buying Shoes that I'll never wear.

I can..
Spend money like it's nobody's business, Make my room a mess without even moving, Be extremely emotional and cheesy, Keep a secret, Make Rainbow Cake, Type very very fast, Make out for hours on end, Read a book in a day, Write a 50, 000 word novel in 30 days, Write Poems that rhyme consistently.

I won’t…
Eat fish, or snails, or frogs legs, Give oral sex, or anal for that matter, Enjoy dance/trance/hardcore thumpity music, Stop listening to country music because I think it's nice, Watch horror/gore movies, Stop enjoying reality TV, Stop enjoying Disney and/or Pokemon.

I will…
Continue to buy shoes that I'll never wear and enjoy doing so, buy clothes even though my wardrobe is ready to burst, Continue to feel materialistic for the former two things, Continue to enjoy cheesy music, Always see the new Harry Potter movies, Always read girly novels and enjoy Chick Flicks, Always write, cheesy and sometimes depressing poetry, Try to blog more.

I shouldn’t…
Spend so much money, Buy so many shoes, Feel so materialistic, Aspire to be like Carrie Bradshaw, Buy notepads that I never write in because I think they are too pretty, Swear so much, Be so bitchy, Hord things that mean something to me, or clothes that I don't wear, or feelings that I should get rid of.

I should…
Say what I think, Be more honest, Be proud of myself, Wear the shoes that I buy, Spend more time with my family and friends, Write more, Stop feeling so materialistic, Believe in myself more often, stop feeling so unattractive.

What about you?
Meme found here via here.

Sami
xo

Forever Young

So today is Friday, Day Four in France. Today we are going to Euro Disney. Now call me a child or immature or what not for enjoying this, but I love Disney and my friends and I are considering dressing up as Disney Princesses for Halloween, bit early for planning such an event but hey these things happen in our conversations.

Since it is summer, I have a lack of things to do with my life, so I spend a lot of time watching movies and whatnot or plonking myself in front of the television. I ended up watching Pocahontas the other day and it was great! I also watched the new Disney movie, The Princess Protection Programme too. I grew up with Disney and therefore the movies will always be classic to me. I hope to thoroughly enjoy my time today at Euro Disney and I will be taking plenty of pictures.

As well as this childhood engagement, I have recently started playing Pokemon on the DS. When I've admitted to this, manys a person has told me to Grow Up or Wise up. Oh come on, you know you loved it. I remember trading Pokemon cards in the playground in Primary school and you used to try and swap your crap cards for the shiny ones by telling the other person that it was a really good pokemon for whichever made-up reason you could think of.

I will always enjoy these things and other things such as The Land Before Time and Fern Gully and the Spice Girls because I have grown up with them and loved them as a child. As an adult, I am sure there will be new things for me to enjoy, things that may keep me young, or make me old but if I enjoy them, then why should I care that other people think it's childish and immature?

These are the things that will keep me young at heart when I am an old greying lady with my walking stick and so with that, I am off to enjoy some Pokemon, gotta catch them all remember! So, come on, admit to me your favourite childhood things that you enjoy. Comments are open for them!

Sami
xo